For Sharon, depression is not an illness; it’s a lifetime companion and long-fought struggle. She doesn’t recall not being depressed and doesn’t remember ever feeling true happiness. Therefore, it was her comfort zone to be depressed and stay depressed until she reached a point where life is not interesting for her anymore and she wants to be dead. Her family got used to knowing her as depressed and having a very low tolerance for everything.
Deep inside, Sharon hated this. She wanted to be around her family more, she wanted to be a fun part of their lives, but could not simply get over her depression and join them. The easy solution was to leave her out. Sharon did her homework and started seeking help early on. She tried every medication prescribed to her by her doctors, but nothing seemed to work for long enough. She constantly felt like a walking zombie on her medications. She hated taking them but felt she had no other choice.
